Autumnal

by Kittiwake

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Written and performed by Kittiwake
Mixed by Rebecca Menzia
Mastered by Scott Westerick
Album cover art by Sophie La Leo

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released February 27, 2016

Laila O'Sullivan - Piano and vocals
Joshua Nathan Jeffries - Guitar
Molly McDermott - Cello
Travis Burrows - Drums

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Kittiwake Fairbanks, Alaska

Kittiwake is an experimental art rock band from Fairbanks, AK. Their music is soulful, linear, progressive and passionate with post rock leanings. The songs themselves are emotional in their nature and they illicit a variety of responses. Live, the music is raw and uninhibited, with vocals that dip and soar over octaves of intricate piano and guitar work. ... more

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Track Name: Half/Forgotten
I've been roaming for so long
nomadic
by nature
Limbs loosened by the weather
scurrying 'round the hills
'round the rivers
Lost, full of fear
always on the run
My fur clinging in tufts
tangled, ravaged beast

Here I stand
feckless, feigned innocence
We forgot where
we came from

Here I stand
Body glistening
We were forged from
the star stuff

And it's hard

I caught up with you
and I fused my skin to yours
atom for atom
we met with recognition
And I saw myself
when i looked into your eyes
Ocular galaxies
gazing back at me

Here I stand
feckless, feigned innocence
We forgot where
we came from

Here I stand
body glistening
We were forged from
the star stuff

And it's hard
Track Name: Recurrent
This is the beginning
of a grand old scheme
lights flash in the distance
we both squint to see
Take my hand
(hold me close)
Close your eyes
(say hello)
Wrap me up
(steady now)

breathless
always
bated
always
firmness
always
caresses
always

Limbs entwine
rhythm devine
a whisper
expanded
across the universe
Every movement sets into motion
the smallest sound
Scrape your chair across the pavement
take a look around

What's that in your field of vision?
It's drawing nearer now
Bring forth the greatest measures
to bring it closer now

Wrap me up
(steady now)
Close your eyes
(say hello)
Take my hand
(hold me close)

breathless
always
bated
always
firmness
always
caresses
always

golden
always
it smolders
always
i hold it
always
to open
always
Track Name: Dandelion Seeds
Over the bridge and into the water
you were looking back
Glaze over your eyes
droplets hang there
I see them
I count them
A constellation

A trigger of the moment
Snap-shot
Freeze frame portrait

The white frothy currents
The ripples in the water
Its only a mirage
And I will stand up
Its only a mirage
And i will stand up

Don't let them pull you
into the depths
the slosh-slosh beckoning
Lets just dream of this
Lets just sit here quiet for a while now
and take this moment in

Your baby's got
a paper face
You didn't notice i bet
And when the wind blows
Off it comes
torn from it's roots
like dandelion seeds

The white frothy currents
The ripples in the water
Its only a mirage
And I will stand up
Its only a mirage
And i will stand up
And I will and I will and I will and I will
Stand
Track Name: Insecure
How can you love me when I am like a child?
How can you love me when I'm an empty shell?
How can you love me when I am out of control?
When my head spins so fast
and I fall to the floor

When I don't remember
Starts and finishes
When I don't remember
Movements
When I let my sadness and fear consume me
When I can't form a coherent sentence

I know all of these things and I propagate them
Rolling out my emotions like so many ribbons
Plucking them out of my mouth
One by one
My hands groping
constantly groping
for the cause

I'm tired
I'm tired
I force myself into wakefulness
I'm tired
I'm tired
My dreams make me nervous

All I want and all I need is love
but how can you love me when I do not
love myself?
Track Name: Heart In Mouth
I shucked off my skin and I left it tangled in brushes
It's slack and it's limp
It's shoulder's slumped down
Into submission

My vessel separated from the folds
of myself
The down, trickling sounds
of all the voices coming out
I am hollow now

For every child left alone with every worrisome thought
Too afraid to move
from the bedroom to the kitchen
On pins and needles
on broken glass
I am walking
I hold my breath
I try to drown out the sounds
crashing and ringing

In my defense
It's easier to hide
Let's pretend like
I don't exist
I am shut and I want to be open
but the deeper I dig
the harder the ground is

Cut me loose and I'll disappear
spit my brain onto paper
A well springs up at midnight
My resolve is found in darkness

I shucked off my skin and I left it tangled in brushes
It's slack and it's limp
It's shoulder's slumped down
Into submission

My vessel separated from the folds
of myself
The down, trickling sounds
of all the voices coming out
I am hollow now